in compliance with ben’s whinin’ that no one blogs, i decided i would do so (even though, i know i have an audience of no greater than 2). so yeah, this week has suckked, i looked at what i might need on the final if i flunk 2 chemistry tests…that would spell doom. but yeah, school school school, i’ve been so consumed with it latley, and its so differnet these days though.

back in high school i just thought i tried when i would study for classes. really, i hardly remember picking up and reading any textbooks in high school. but now i’ll read a whole textbook in 3 months, and almost commit that shit to memory. in a manner of about a week though, so you reallly cram it in. i barley studyied in high school, because now in retrospect, i know i never studied this hard in high school. but yeah, school blows, i had to study more tonight, have to do more tomrrow…jesus it doesn’t end.

but yeah, i was thinking that i was getting so involved in school as a deversionary tactic. i mean, as far as i’m concerned teh momen that alyson broke up with me, i just said “whatever, fuck it” pretty much right off thae bat. but now i wonder if i really did feel that or maybe i’m just really good at fooling myself, cause i’m pretty sure its taken me about this long to completley get over it. so i was wondering if i had totlly dumped myself into school to avoid dealing with what i was feeling. i mean, i did calculus homework everynight of the week, and i would study for test 2 to 3 nights ahead instead of pulling one all-nighter. i get my shit done, i’ve been fairly sober latley. but yeah, maybe it was beneficial for me, cause at times i don’t always think that studying is somethign i don’t want to do. when i do somethign like math and chemistry (not necesarilly somethign i have ever been good at) and actually being able to comphrehend things now.

but yeah, we were watching top gun, and i findthat funny, cause we had a huge discussion about it the last tiem we watched it. we had a huge discussion about how, although top gun is probably the hugest guy movie int he world, some people think that there are huge gay references all through out he movie. of course this was brought up by a girl, and of course it was met by a bunch of guys who told her she was full of shit. but then you start watchign it closley, just cause you’re not ocmpletley sure. and you see them playing with their shirts off….high fivin’ …slapping each other’s butts…the way guys act int eh locker room, only wearing towels all th3e time…it just gets harder and harder to see it as the ultimate guy clssic movie, the one you would watch at least 5 rimes a week cause they would play it on TBS allllllll the time. and i mean if wild on E! wasn’t on, what else was wroth watching? at least our trustly old movie that guys will love for generations to come, and women will never understand. ahhhh nostalgia of movies…

hmmm train of thought intercepted by tuffos and pizza…and the possibility of . too distratced, might blog later…peace