i do not understand how i could possibly write a blog right now, i am so tired. 80 degree days and working out in the sun really takes it out of you….hahah, i’m tired but not exhausted though. its nice to have your day at work be your workout so you don’t have to go running or something afterwards.

but yeah the weekend completley rocked. it was rad to chill with the 203 crew over the weekend and just get ragingly belligerent. the pool table is great too. haha, having adam’s little brother up is fun too, i swear, he fits right in with our group, even though he’s 7 years younger than all of us.

fucked, i gotta go, oh well

203 = wudar

wtf? i’m gone from the house for a week, and everything goes everywhere, and i am outr of ht eloop, cause i’m never online these days due to the fact that its my bro’s computer and i can’t get internet on mine. but sheeeeeeet. apparently we’re moving now. now really i don’t give a damn, its just funny when all sorts of info comes barreling down on you and you have no idea what’s going on. i mean really, i don’t care, its just the place i live. i’m kinda beginning to feel like everything i have is superfluous, but but i don’t think i’m totally convinced of it yet cause i haven’t been put in a position where i do lose things that i have…

i had a great convo with ben at work though, i really think i needed that. trying to sort out the difference between caring and not caring. he made me think about it in a new way though, i really thought i was bitter in most senses, and jaded, but not quite an di could never quite put my finger on the difference i was feeling. and then ben said that you had to care to be bitter, and that put everything in perspective. ben you are so money, and you know it, and its rad. but yeah, i have a feeling this summer is going to be interesting, to say the least…for down here in seattle, and up there in bellingham. i almost feel like i’m in two different worlds, and i kinda am. obligations to people in bellingham, and obligations to people here in seattle, like i have too many people i need to keep track of. i don’t necesarilly think of them as obligations, because these people are my friends. i kinda feel like last summer, i just escaped from one place to the other, cause i remember not really keeping track of my bellingham peeps over the summer, but i can already tell like this one is going to be different. haha, one week into the summer, and i’m already excited about the prospects for this summer. i mean, if jakub can get a girlfriends, then anything’s possible….

hahaha, my first work blog…and thus again begins the cycle of nothingness. god this shit is a breeze compared to school. i don’t have to think, i don’t have to take notes, i don’t have to do homework. i show up and i push buttons and goof off. all this and i get paid, its pretty sweet i must say.

man, i kinda miss the pool table already though…ah well, living at home is nice for short stretches of time. when you get back home after a fairly large hiatus, its pretty easy to get along with your parents, and hell they feed you and everything. i imagine if i stayed all summer though, i probably wouldn’t appreciate it as much. but i mean, i live here for a bit, i move in with ben, and then i move back at the end of the summer (depending if i have knee surgury or not)

i kinda feel like today at work was kinda a reintroduction to seattle after not being here for awhile. first off, traffic int he morning was bad, but hell, i haven’t been able to just blast music i like and sing along with it, so that made it pretty damn fun. and i showed up to work and just talked with ben most of the morning, and we bullshitted and it was great. of course it was raining today, but not a downpour, so it was cool. and then i got stuck in traffic again going to the office on the alaskan viaduct. which was rediculous becasue it was noon, but what was funnier is when i finally got to the cause of the traffic (30 minutes later) there was just two of the three lanes blocked off with flares, and two police cars blocking the road, and nothing else.

…

now normally in any other place this would probably be strange, you know, to block off two lanes of a highway when there’s nothing wrong. but i really think that its a seattle thing, to have meaningless traffic. hahaha, i thought it was pretty funny though, i don’t really mind getting caught in traffic too much when its travelling around during the workday.

and now apparently there’s projects for me to do, and things for me to keep track of, but ben assures me that everything will be fine. just can’t go home early as much i suppose….oh well, i need stuff to do anyways.

oh and i passed all my classes, i am so stoked….i don’t even care too much, i mean, i smoked my bio class cause i’m interested in that stuff, i just want to get chemistry and math out of the way.

AND NOW I WILL NEVER HAVE TO TAKE ANOTHER MATH CLASS AGAIN!!!

oh thank the jebus

2 finals down, one to go

i don’t even really care how i did them…i just keep thinking i shouldn’t start selling my books yet though…well at least for chemistry

i have a bunch of math to review now, i haven’t even started looking at it yet

i don’t care

one more day…..

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

2 finals tomrrow

1 on thursday

then i am done….DONE!!!! oh god!!!

you know you download too much porn when….

A) You get home, sit down and start visiting your regular sites like clockwork, chatting with people at the same time, and not even caring what you are downloading, or why

B) The people on your network complain when you don’t put new stuff up everyday

C) You get frustrated when the sites you go to post stuff you have had for months

D) You don’t even get a woody when goign through all your sites

E) You don’t even minimize all the sites you’re going through when people you don’t know or barley know come into your room

F) You have a 10 gig hardrive that keeps filling up every week, and you get frustrated when you have to go and sort through all the crap you’ve downloaded to see what’s worth keeping, and what’s not, just so you can go ahead and download more crap.

I AM THE PORN MASTER!!!

hahaha, everyone stop what you’re doing right now, and turn your keyboard upside down and shake it, its absolutly disgusting…yet rad

man, what a great weekend this has been. i already explained my friday night, which was rad, but last night was really rad, and today was rad as well.

so we headed down to USC 6 around like 9:30 or something after a few minor set backs (the usual, waiting for people to get money, peopel to get ready, etc.) but we made it down there around 11 or somethign and we were kinda bummed cause we already missed bad company and ed rush and optical were already halfway through their set. but we were trying to schmooze one free ticket from a person that adam knew but wasn’t going to attend but she wasn’t on the list so that didn’t work out. so we were very grudgingly going to shell out 50 bucks a pop just so we could get in, but lily saved us outright. it was funny apprently she just had this one girl’s name and that got her a ticket for her and her friend, which also happened to be VIP. she was so rad and gave us the two tickets for 30 bucks, so we ended up only paying 80 between 3 of us, which was alot more reasonable than 150. so then when we were trying to get in, one of the security guards told chanta that she couldn’t get in with her belt because it had metal studs on it and could be used as a weapon. bah, i swear…i mean technically i could use any piece of clothing on me as a weapon. i mean my phat pants probably weigh 7 or 8 pounds, and if i took them off and twisted them i could probably hurt some ont that way. i could also take off my shirt, twist that and choke someone with it. or i could take off my shoe as well and bludgeon someone with that. i could also put my keys between my knuckles and use those as weapons. really, its pretty damn rediculous. so they had to walk back to the car and drop that off, and while i was waiting in line, some guy asked me if i wanted to make some money, so he handed me the ticket he had bought and asked me to sell it for him. it was rad, i was running around tryign to barter with people, making up stories about how i just bought it, and my friend had showed up with my free ticket so i was just trying to unload it and get in. and i managed to unload it on someone for 40 bucks, so that guy ended up giving me 10. that was pretty rad.

so i pretty much headed straight for the jungle room and looked for my friends there, cause the jungle room was kinda our rallying point, and i got there in tiem to see the last half hour of ed rush and optical, and those guys are “on the chain” to put it as MC RhymeTyme did, i thought that was a great saying. so i danced and danced and generally went nuts to jungle. and dance i did. despite my injured knee, i did a pretty damn good job schooling alot of the people there. i mean, there was some pretty good dancers there, but it seems like there were alot more when i started out. it just seemd like alot of the people there were not really as intot he dancing. they also seemed really young to me though. sigh….guess i’m just getting older. there was this one guy though who was all decked otu with glow rings all over his body, and he asked me if i had been at endfest, and i told him i had, and he was like “yeah, i remember seing this awesome dancer there, and i thought i recognized you”. that was amusing to me, seeing as that was about a year ago, but i still took it as a compliment.yeah although most of the rooms were dissappointing, it was cool to see swamp and the crystal method would have been a whole lot better if they had been playing a live set as opposed to a DJ set, but they still played some rad enoguh tracks to keep me in there for more than 10 minutes. but the jungle room ownd me, seeing ed rush, optical, diselboy, ak1200 and dara was just awesome. hearing such dark and evil jungle is great when you’re in a dirty, dark warehouse. the mc was actually good too, most of the time i think they detract from the music, but the mc’s were rad this time. they did clsoe early this time, like around a little after 5 which was kinda chus, but i still got to end my night with donald glaude, which is just kind of a tradition with exhibition center parties.

so i talked to alot of interestign people, i danced like a maniac, and i had a blast with my friends, so in the end it was very very rad. but i just found out like 10 minutes ago, that my brother had been there. dammit! i wanted to be with him for hsi first party, and i technically was, but it was way too crowded to really run into people you weren’t looking for. althoguh that did happen quite a bit, i wish it had happened with my bro…sigh….oh well, maybe next time. he told me he had a blast though, and i think that’s pretty cool.

but yeah i woke up pretty damn cracked out today, but it was beautiful out, and i layed around the sun from like 1 to 4:30 alternating between lying on my back and listening to music, and lying on my stomach and studying bio. i actually managed to accomplish all my reading, so that was cool. then mikey showed up and we went down to the samish river and mikey caught 2 minnows, it was great. taking beer with you and just shoving them in the river to get them cold is so great. i couldn’t fish with mike though cause he forgot the reel for his other rod, so i got to toy around with his for a bit, but i really need alot more practice to fly fish, i’ll get there though if i keep going with him though. it was rad, tryign to feel those damn minnows pull on the line, that is some difficult shit, i only felt them hit like twice, but it was still rad. i spent most of the rest of my time trying to name as many plants as i could and i was surprised at how many i remembered but i wished ben had been there, or i had my pojar or something, cause i got stumped on some of them and i was like “wtf? i should know this shit” but it was still rad.

so we chilled and got a little buzzed and then came home and got a nice, sluttly, papa murphey’s chicken garlic pizza. oh god, i love those pizza’s. got mangled, all my homework’s done, i’m looking forward to doign nothing tonight. i swear, sometimes my weeknds are more tiring than my week, but i’ll be goddamned if i don’t have a shitload more fun durign the weekend. wudar.

ahhh, weekends are rad, you can just sit around till noon in your boxers, playing video games

life is good

haha, yeah last night was great, went to evan and chris’s birthday party and hilled and drank there for a bit, and i ran into this girl bobbi that is really rad, but i haven’t hung around with her that much this year. so we drove around and ended up at this hawaiian party, and it looked like we were invading their space, cause they kept shooting us looks of contempt. it was rad. bobbi had a friend dusty who was up visiting, and she was a total punk rock girl, it was fun hanging around with those guys. we tried to get into fairhaven to go see if we could go to the studio or something, but that was locked of course, not like we could get into the studio without keys anyways…but yeah, there was erica and this random dude darren who was pretty rad, we tried to walk up seahome hill but ended up getting abotu 100 yards before we realized that it would take too long, and we were pretty trashed. so we just sat down and talked. hahha, bobbi’s so great, when we were walking back she rubbed my shirt sleeve and randomly asked me “is this felt?” and i looked confused for a second and before i could respond, she said “do you want it to be?” i nearly died laughing, it took me so by surprise. and then she proceeded to head butt into erica, which was pretty damn funny too.

so i got dropped off by those guys and got back home and chris and renee were chilling, and everyone else had gone to sleep or sum shit, but yeah chris and renee were still awake so we went ,up to blanchard mountain and we sat up there, chilled and talked for a bit. that lookout spot is really beautiful. it looks out over mount vernon and burlington, and even though there’s still lots of light pollution, you can still see a fair amount of stars. but yeah, we just drove back, and chris and i sat around for a bit before pasing out.

i woke up and its beautiful out…life is rad.

going to USC 6 tonight, i haven’t been to a party ibn so long…i’m so stoked for this, its gonna be rad.