fuck fuck fuck, i cannot FOCUS AT ALL

this day needs to be over. after two tests, missed rides, and cryptic messages from doctors, more tests tomrrow, this day can go straight to hell and kill me while its at it. i don’t even have anythign to look forward to. i mean, i won’t be able to drink this weekend, because of blood thinning drugs, and i can’t do anything outside because i’m supposed to rest, and the blood thinning drugs. so i’m forced to sit and do nothing.

hell, maybe the doctor will tell me that my blood is so fucked that i’ll have to go back to the hospital tomrrow or something. it wouldn’t surprise me.