oh the humanity….

ok so mike’s blog died for “unspecified reasons”

despite the fact that “unspecified” is highly obvious, i still have to bid it farewell. its not like it’s really going anywhere anyways, since wudar.com is all about geology, and his blog was pretty damn near the same thing.

adieu, mike’s blog, adieu….

*moment of silence*

so yeah, now that the theatrics are over, i can get to more important things, like how empty my life is. Have i told anyone recently how empty i feel all the time? i just meander around, looking for meaning, something to fill this void of nothing, and yet all i do is find more nothing in return. if only i could fill myself up with meaning, then i’d be happy, fullfilled, etc.

(please note very sarcastic tone, if not obvious)

it’s funny (let’s see if i can analogy this), i feel like i was running in this race for awhile (of the social variety) and then one day i just went “why the hell am i even running?” then i looked around and everyone was gone, cause i stopped running. and it felt…nice. i just laid down in the middle of the track and passed out, with a cold beer in my hand. i didn’t just give up, i just realized that there was no difference to me if i was running or not. and running is definatly more difficult than passing out with a cold beer in your hand. but it’s not like i’m stagnant, just taking my own pace as opposed to trying to keep up with everyone else.

so yeah, that kinda sums up the past year or so i think.

History of the Ryan: Part 1

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