man, all this time i’ve been going to kulshan and buying inner tubes for 6 bucks a pop, when i could’ve been getting them on campus at the outdoor center for 3.25. what have i been doing all these years, ripping myself off for no reason? of course i gotta be finding that out near the end of my college career.

i know that being a student entitles me to alot of stuff, what else have i been missing out on since i started being a student here? i gotta get on this shit before i check out of here. i know i’ve saved a shitload on medical bills, because all these blood tests and doctor visits that are manditory.

its time to start exploting this place proper like, straight up pirate style.

so i’m sitting here and this guy keeps checking on his printing to see if its come up, but i’m blocking it cause i printed this PDF file, and for some reason, some of them take like a minute to process through the printer before it even contemplates printing a page. i think there’s maybe one or two more pages to print, and i bet as soon as it prints he’s going to come up again, and look at it and see its not his. it’s funny because he knows it’s me, because the paper has iRNA all over it, and i have a couple of papers strewn about that have the same topic plastered all over them. so he knows its me jamming up the printer, and maybe he’s silently stewing it over, wishing that biology jackasses wouldn’t come up to the physics computer lab and start printing up papers that take forever to process. or maybe he doesn’t care. but it kinda seems like he does cause he keeps coming back to check the printer.

i know, it is true, i’m a jackass. that guy ended up printing something for criminal justice anyways.

i finally took a test today that i had spent all weekend studying for (along with working on a premier weekend of shrek 2, understaffed) and i am completly beat, and i want to go home. but i can’t. allright, one more little complaint and then i’m out.

doctors. fuckin’ a man. i could be going home right now and laying in the sun cause its like almost 80 degrees, but i have to go to the doctor at 2 pm today to see him and it’s the only earliest time availible to see him. so i’m gonna get there at 2. then i’m gonna wait in the waiting room for a half hour to 40 minutes. then they’re gonna run me back to an examination room where i’ll sit for another half hour before the doctor talks to me for about 5 minutes and tells me stuff that easily could have been done over the phone. it’ll probably take even longer than that. i wish i could just check in now so i could show up around 2, and maybe the doctor would be ready to see me at my APPOINTMENT TIME. appointments should just be called getting in line. dammit, i won’t even be able to wait outside during this episode, i gotta be freakin’ inside. not happy.

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Poetry Corner:

this blog was very shallow, much more so than the last one

but there are just times when you have to come to the conclusion

that sometimes when you’ve got a problem resting on your chest

its best to brush it off into a shallow place to rest.

this whole damn page is shallow, it’s unavoidable

because the author’s stupidity is undisputable

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thank you, thank you. come here more often to read trivial, stupid complaints.

3 more freaking weeks of school, then sweet blissful summer.

we’ll see, we’ll see… i just look forward to doing only a moderate amount of thinking like getting prepped to work in a lab and study for GREs which is not the same as “3 weeks of material for a test”

that and the week after i get out of school, shaolin soccer is going to be playing at the independant theater in town. what better way to “kick” off the summer than being able to see that glorious movie on a psuedo-big screen?

i’m just getting myself worked up though, these next few weeks will be fun-filled, i’m sure.

i went to this talk on tuesday night that was given by this geochemist at harvard who studied mid-atlantic ridges, small volcanoes of sulfur that are generated by new plate being formed, and this basically creates a habitat for thousands of diverse species.

he pretty much made the point that intelligence is basically a byproduct of planetary evolution. i can’t put it nearly as eloquently as he did, but he spent about a half hour showing how climate and plate tectonics work to make volcanoes, which will sustain bacteria, even near the mantle, and eventually these volcanoes create contients. Failed planets such as venus and mars are the two ends of the specturm of this climate/plate tectonics thing not working, where one is dead, and the other is in overdrive. these continents will allow life that may evolve due to the underwater volcanoes to make their way onto land, and then diversify once they can utilize the atmosphere that has been created due to underwater creatures.

So since there are plate tectonics to drive the initial evolution, then there must be this balance between climate, water, and plate tectonics to drive life. in fact, it is probably a byproduct of this process, and any planet that has this balance is going to eventually create life. And eventually, this life is going to become intelligent through millions of years. so in essence, we are in our own cambrian explosion right now, forever altering the planet.

i thought it was pretty damn cool, kind of an unexpected train of logic, but wasn’t entirely unbelieveable. what a cool place this is.

so i’m in a typin mood. type type typin away at the ol’ keyboaaaaaaaaaaaard.

thank you thank you very much, i’ll be at this web address as long as ben can afford the hosting.

i mean, its already 2 am, and i gotta be up in a couple hours, but i do not even feel close enough to stop mangling. i want more time for mangling. i guess an hour a day needs to be set aside for mangling. i’ll call it “Ryan’s Mangling Hour” but an hour is too limiting, i shouldn’t put a roof on mangling.

“Ryan’s Mangling Time”

hello kids, welcome to ryan’s mangling time, where anything that mangles (which is broad and pretty all-encompassing) can and will mangle. all you have to do is just take a moment tomorrow and look around any public place you are, hell even TV can pull it off most times. just look at the people. what the hell is goign through their head? is it pretty similar to what you’re thinking? it could be anything, and yet the odds probably point to something mundane in most situations, that’s where i gotta spice things up a bit.

woman driving car: “i wonder if i can plant that tree on top of my co-workers desk without him noticing”

man standing on street corner: “boy howdy! check out the ivy over there, it looks like a witches hair that’s haning over a weeping willow looking for a wonderful bottle of life to rejuvinate it.”

my garbage can: “i smell, and i’m loving it!”

hey anyone else notice that we’re in another shitty election? i really think that this year’s crop is even worse than the last. i mean, they’re both horrible. i mean, not voting for bush is a given, but kerry?. they’re both just going to be the pied piper, leading our country down the highway to hell. might as well speed up our self destruction i suppose. we were taking our time for a bit, but now we hopped on a crotch-rocket. i’m interested to see what happens. mostly because i’m indifferent.

but hey, it’s cool.

so i’ve been thinking that i need to maybe change the title of my blog as well, i guess i’ve always thought i should, but when i do have time to blog, i’d rather write about something inanae, i’ll get around to it soon.

so i did what i said i should do and totally took tuesday night off, and it was glorious, it really hit the spot, what can i say.

there’s only 4 more weeks of school. i don’t graduaet till the fall, but its close enough, fall quarter is just going to be working in a lab anyways. it’s odd, i’ll be gradumuated and everything, and will probably still be in the theater. que sera…i’ll end up doing something with my degree, i worked way to hard for it not to.

were’s me begal?

man, i did what i wanted to last night which was drink and play video games with nothing to interfere, and it was exactly what i needed, i felt so much better throughout today, it was amazing. i figure i got alot done today, and i figure i’ll be able to get alot done tongiht as well.

but good god, i have to be at the movie theater by 8:30 tomrrow? who goes to see movies at 9 AM on a school day? morons rule my life.

what’s with all these bloggin changes? it reminds me of AOL….

so yeah, i finished a paper, printed some stuff to read later, and am now left with 10 minutes before i have to go warm up the spec 20 so i can figure out how much bacteria i have in a flask. i really just want to take a nap right now, but i don’t have enough time to really get anything started before i swith gear. damn naps are so tempting but just leave me even more tired when i do get up to go to class again.

i’m at a blank, i figured if i just started writing, something interesting would come out. apparently not though, it’ll probably just end up being whiny because truthfully, i’m tired of school, tired in over all, and just feeling drained in general. i find myself having to be really productive even on days off from school. There’s a million things to do, and all i want to do is spend about 24 hours in front of my playstation 2 with phone friggin unplugged and dogs that shoot bees out of their mouths when they bark to keep everyone else away.

There’s no zest at the moment, something is sucking at my soul right now, leaving me feeling drained at all times, and yet, nothing has really changed in my life. i’m trying to pin point it, but i figure that its just something like to much for too long. i’ll get by. i think it might be that i just need some alone time, which i’m finding more and more is essential for me. if i don’t get time to just lounge i get cracnky. i mean i go to school all day 4 days a week, and when i get home on those days i normally have to read, study, or write something before i have to do something social for a couple hours and then bed, where i wake up the next morning at 8 to go to school again, then i’ll work 4 days straight, killing my weekend.

i just feel trapped in a routine that isn’t even my own, it’s all dictated by outside sources, which i choose because i feel obligated to, but its so fast paced, that having time to just lay in the yard when its sunny isn’t an option. it has to be complicated by going to public park with others so its noisy and takes awhile to get everyone together, then there must be social interactions or games or something to keep the entire group entertained. why can’t i just skip all that bullshit and just lay in the yard with a book? because of obligations…..and my inability to say no because its easier to just give in to other people’s wills than to defy them.

man, i’m just getting more and more jaded as i write this, which i kinda feel is uneccesary. i guess this is some of the crankiness that goes with not having the alone time.

i’m so taking tonight off.

allright, this is really dorky, but i was reading through an optional lecture my teacher posted (but couldn’t get to in class) and there was this cool picture about control of DNA transcription through methylation of the cytosine in DNA to 5-methylcytosine. I just thought it was amazing that millions of years of evolution created a complex DNA transcription protection, and that it did so through random chance.

i think the only thing i got out of school is an ability to think in this rediculously complex language, i have to say i enjoy it though.

if anyone else is interested in a little more great science info, then check out this article, it has a lot of great insight into the world of science today, it’s at least fairly well written, and easy to understand