something unorthodox, something new, got nothing in either of those areas

its friday, i have two weeks left of my college career, where i find out that working and school minus the school just leads to more freetime, and thus an abuse of time and substances. i need to find a job though, because i need to get out of bellingham. it’s been great, but it’s time to bid adieu.

i heard california just approved a 3 billion dollar measure to fund stem cell research. maybe i should move down there and get a job. work a couple of years, gain residency then go to brewmaster college in davis. probably my best bet, since my job field is just a passing phase before it’s all done by computers. there’s a lot of job security in alcohol manufacturing and porn, so i figure since i’m not hung like a stallion, i can go make alcohol. sounds like a plan to me.

two weeks of school though couldn’t have come at a better time. i can say i’m going to get my masters, but it’s not going to hapen unless i have a huge midlife crisis. the college instituion is full of shit, and i’m sick of dumping money into it. every one takes such stock in college degrees, but even if you major in something, you still only have a broad view of your field, making you open ended to go anywhere in your field, but it’s not like you can’t just learn the specifics in half the time.

say for instance, me. all the stuff i’m going to be doing in labs could all be looked up in a book called “molecular cloning”. pretty much everything i would struggle through in labs to comprehend and understand is spelled out in plain english in these books. if you want to know the proper restriction enzymes to use in chopping a piece of DNA, this book will list the best kinds to use, the buffer solutions to use, and precisley how to mix them to get the desired effect. no doing calculations based on vague professor instructions, just paint-by numbers. sure you want to learn something about what you’re doing, but that’s for the hardcore people who actually have drive and want to commit the rest of their lives to researching ideas they come up with.

not for me, work is the means to and end, not the end in itself. even if i become a brewmaster, which is possibly the coolest job i could get, i would still enjoy a hike, or video games, or time with friends on a completly different level than work. college doesn’t make you smarter, it just lets you know where your priorities lay. i guess i had to spend 30 grand to figure out that i’m pretty much in the same place i started with a little more knowledge of a specific subject. at least that thirty grand helped fuse my resolves though, at least i’m pretty sure of them.

working anywhere for anybody is the same no matter what. the fact that you have to interact with people on a daily basis in this way ensures that drama will ensue, no matter if you’re serving fast food or doing cancer research. same shit, different pile.

bitter, bitter, bitter, i gotta stop this kick. it’s just fun because it’s so much easier to be bitter in a written medium than in person. being bitter with other people just ends up in wasted time and effort. so i just get it out in a half hour blog and vent a little steam, and maybe come back and read it later and be like “jeez, i’m a narrow minded asshole”. and i may very well be that. selfish, crude, and lazy, all balanced out with everything else i do. the fact that i’m a walking contradiction gives a very apathetic striving to discover who i am, what i’m doing, where i’m going. there’s no rush, so why not deal with it as it happens?

i will be seeing bone thugz and harmony tonight though, and that definatly puts a smile on my face. and i’m going to go try my hand at tutoring junior high school students right now, so i’m sure that will be a little shake up of what i’m used to.

i’ll see you at the crossroads….

so i came up to school here to do some chemistry lab work, but i get here and find that none of the data i need to even do the lab has been posted on the server.

aw shucks, now i’m going to have to go drink beer and play halo 2.

i even came all fired up to work after a full workday, and now, it’s gone, i couldn’t accomplish anything right now if i tried, it’d be extremly half assed and i’d have to fix it anyways.

so the big news for everyone is: bush is back in office. i say great. if this is what america chose, then we deserve every slanderous remark, every attack against us, everything we got coming to us for being a bunch of self-rightous, pompus, “leaders of the free world”.

the feeling that overcame me most when i heard that kerry had conceeded wasn’t dread, wasn’t outrage, wasn’t disbelief.

it was embaressment. here we are as a nation, throwing our weight around like we run the world, not listening to anyone, and doing as we please. the rest of the world hates us even more than americans used to be hated because of our actions in the past 4 years. and even if he wasn’t personally responsible, the figurehead for all these actions is GW. we have four years of this kind of leadership (that is chosen by us) and then, when all is said and done, we put him right back in the white house for another four years. this just goes right out and says:

“yes, our leader was doing all this stuff, but you know what? we think he did such a swell job that we’ll give him another 4 years.”

oh, the shame.

i mean, kerry would probably have been just as bad. but at least it would have sent the message that maybe america realized that what it’s been doing in the world community probably wasn’t the greatest thing to do, and maybe it’s time for a change.

but you know, it’s probably not going to change anything anyways. speeding up the destruction of america might not be such a bad thing in the end. i mean, we’ll just keep doing what we’re doing until there are some pretty harsh repercussions, GW might just help those get here sooner.

but who knows, maybe GW will save america, i mean, anything’s possible in the nexxt 4 years now. i just know there’s going to be some huge changes in the world in the next 4 years now, and i’m really interested to see how everything pans out. the possibilities are limitless. this seat-of-the-pants kind of government is just the spice needed around here.

i’m pretty sure i blogged about the aliens before, but i think they’re gonna be needed now more than ever. for a little refresher of the alien theory:

the only way for this world to realize itself as a global community is for something to exsist outside of it. irrefutable proof such as landing in the middle of times square and zapping a few people. aliens coming down to earth and interacting with people would be irrefutable proof that there is something outside of this world that is larger than us, and suddenly the world will seem a whole lot smaller.

we need this kind of shock if there’s going to be any change that doesn’t involve wiping out 90% of the world’s population, or the enitre planet having one huge ecstacy-fueled orgy.

yes, it’s ludicrous, but have you watched FOX news lately?

yo ho, happy election day.

i actually got off my ass and registered up here this time so i wouldn’t have to go through all the hoopla i did last time, and it helped, in and out in 15 minutes, even with a fairly large line.

i’m just waiting to hear the news in a couple of days that GW wins yet again, and some more shady things can happen during the process, and our country will continue on its current state of destruction.

i really don’t think kerry will do a much better job but he has these qualities going for him:

a) He’s coherent

b) He lets us know that he doesn’t want to give america an even worse appearance to the rest of the world

c) he at least pretends to care about social issues and the environment

if he gets in, he’s going to have a rough time of it, that’s for sure, but at least gw won’t be able to make supreme court appointments, or fumble his words in front of a disinterested america.

i’m just wondering if america is going to make it the next decade without suffering a nuclear attack, we probably have it coming.

it’s already november, i haven’t blogged in over two weeks. where the hell did that time go?

i only have about a month before i graduate, that’s pretty awesome. i did so well on my last two tests that it pretty much registered that these classes are no where near as hard as everything else i’ve taken and i don’t really have to put forth the effort i’m used to. so i’ve been pretty delinquent about school, but i don’t have much time left to be this lazy, because showing up to work won’t be optional.

i’ll miss it, but i want to get the hell out of here.