there was this moment where i was in bellingham eating breakfast at diamond jim’s and chicago’s “saturday in the park” was played. it was odd. i felt sudden elation and happiness to be able to enjoy all the things that were around me. people that care about me, delicious food, music, warmth, clothes, frame of mind, everything. it was everything. everything around me resonated with being wonderful and it seemed so small to direct my love at only a few things when the multitude of things surrounding me deserve just as much. everything deserves it equally, because everything was reciprocating, at least that’s how it felt.

it was so temporary though, only lasted a few hours, i came back to earth feeling happy still, but without the wonder. it still somewhat resonates though. i look around, experience this life for fleeting seconds at a time, then get back to reality, because it demands my prescense. it demands my time, but i feel like i need to catch up with it.

it needs to slow down.