throughout most of your day, there is this vein.

the vein of absurdity.

sometimes you are far too distracted to notice it, and things don’t seem as absurd. other times, it gushes out of the vein soaking you so that everything seems to be saturated in it. despite being hosed over and over again though, things still matter. you feel like you have a view into this life, and the deeper the analysis goes, the more questions that pop up, the more absurd everything seems.

but you don’t fully commit to the absurdities that you observe, because that would probably drive you crazy. you know that well is there though, so you peer into it occasionaly because it helps give perspective. that perspective helps to deal with day to day activities because if things weren’t absurd, then they would probably be something else you would be looking to for balance.

there obviously has to be more to this life than what we have created for ourselves. but even the things that we do discover to help adhere our thoughts with our actions makes it better and worse. it’s easier for things to be planned when we have an idea of where we are going, and problems that may arise. but questioning why these things happen to be better leads to this line of questioning that spirals down to logic traps and contradictions that need other questioned answered to function properly.

and the cycle goes on, where all the active thought in the world might or might not bring you the answers you seek depending on how you set the definitions.