this is stupid. i’m not even sure what it is, but i got a feelin’. my brain feels like it is needing to go somewhere but it has no directions to follow. it feels like it needs a refill of cream filling, because it just dried out and needs to be replenished.

i guess at least i got hired at this place i’m working. it’s a very nice job with very nice people and i’m lucky to be involved. and have benefits to boot.

i was so happy and live this morning, and then i worked and noticed that my brain had gone AWOL. it happened right now as i sat down to write a little bloggie. this is my moment to say something of stupendous importance to be immortalized as long as blogger’s servers don’t crash. and it is frittered away, lost, to be told at a later date. fatigue gets layered on my brain as the weekends become more work than the work week. i think it will always be like that though, since i probably prefer it that way. why else would i do it, right?

i don’t even think these sentances are really coming together at all, so it’s probably best to stop. but i don’t, hoping to find the loose thread that is going to unravel this whole snippet. there’s nothing to grasp though. nothing to pull, no force to be exchanged.

and so nothing happens.