so unmotivated, how did i end up here? time to kill, or at least something to do while i listen to some music. i’m really digging pandora.com, it’s already exposed me to a bunch of music it probably would have taken months for me to find on my own. i highly recommend it, whatever music you like. it’ll help you on your journey.

it’s funny because i’m somewhat excited about this so it makes it easy to write. i don’t really get excited about anything anymore. nothing cool anyways. it’s always exciting to get off of work or go to a mariners game or whatever. but to get so excited about something that you want everyone to know about i, that’s been awhile.

huh. when i think about it, i gave up on that practice awhile ago, kind of. i get excited about something to almost always find that no one else really cares. not that i’m expecting everyone to have a religious experience to things i may expose them to, but it was mostly indifference. people are busy, i understand that. it takes time to look at all of this stuff. and truthfully, i’m the same way. it’s the way it is.

i need to think about this some more and filter through my filters to see what is really coming through. i think there’s something deeper here.