huh, already the end of october. i’ve been wanting to post for awhile, but ironically i only want to blog at work. things have been busy and i haven’t had time to jump over here while at work. it’s that busy.

but it’s good, it keeps my mind distracted. i sit here with nothing really interesting to say because i’ve been go go go for the past couple of weeks and have barley had a chance to sit down. hence i am focused at the task at hand and the days keep sliiping though my fingers. there were some notable experiences though.

i went to a seahawks game last sunday, and it wasn’t the best game for the hawks, but it was still fun. i’m not a huge sports guy, but i know what’s going on. spectator sports are passive for me, not active. what set it apart from any other game i’ve been to though was going with season pass holders. as opposed to the mariners (where fans are more fair-weather) the seahwks have a large following of hardcore fans. going to a tailgate before the game is a huge community event. everyone’s there for two things. get drunk and support the hawks. it was so cool to be among all these people, even though i don’t share the passion they have. it’s just cool to observe. getting drunk and eating meatball subs is awesome as well.

went to see amon tobin last night, which was a huge deal for the group i was with, but i was just along for the ride. it turned out to be alot of fun, even if the music isn’t really my bag (it’s mostly beats, with little melody). but there was this drummer called KJ who played live drum and bass on a drumset, which was amazing. watching this guy bust out complex, 180 bmp beats for long stretches of time is a sight to behold. being a good drummer didn’t hurt him either.

otherwise i just drift from day to day, working, meeting friends and people when i can, and relaxing when i can. everything always feels like a full schedule, but if you take a step back from everything you’re so intent on, it feels a bit rediculous. my life is dictated by others i feel, but i can still interpret them. and have fun while doing it.

why not?

I been feelin’ in a rut, but i know that things are getting better. you can just feel these things, slowly and surely. anyways, someone found my page looking for this:

“a game called organisim were you take a girl’s clothes off and give her an organisim and try not to wake her up”

i wonder if this person really meant organisim? this is just so funny on so many levels, i can’t help but chuckle. on that particualr search phrase, i am #1 on yahoo search, with one other hit.

#1!

ego stroke update:

they said my name on the radio! and they used my quote, which was so shameless and awesome.

“If it wasn’t for KPLU, i would never listen to the radio.”

oh man, it actually worked! that was so cool.

this is definatley the coolest night in recent memory.

ego stroke corner:

I just, for the first time ever, contributed to public braodcasting. 88.5 is pretty much the only station i listen to (sometimes KEXP, if it’s hip hop) so 10 bucks a month for all the radio i listen to, along with all the podcasts i listen to at work is a pretty good deal. i’m just happy i can afford something like this. my life is that good.

woo ha! happy thursday to all. it’s been a beautiful fall week with that sudden transition from 70 degree to 50 degree weather, and all the leaves begin to dump off of the trees. which makes for pretty scenery when you go out and do stuff, outside. i’d like to have a little more daylight please. by the time we have to push our clocks back, it doesn’t really do anything, since it’s already getting dark at 6.

prattle, prattle, prattle. there must be something of semi-consequence to write about. so stay tuned, maybe something quirky and cool will come out of this. i get to see ATB tomrrow, that will be fun. it’s in a fairly crowded, meat-market, type venue though, so dancing will be minimal, which is highly unfortunate. i’ve been needing to get a good dance out for awhile now. i guess there’s nothing to keep me from doing it at home, besides downstairs neighbors. but at a club, the volume and atmosphere is just something you can’t match at home.

it seems i keep trying to throw things into my life that i used to do, but haven’t really done in awhile, like practicing my violin, and doing super-light studying to try and keep my mind in the bio world.

i keep adding more and more, and i have so much i want to do. there’s not enough time to do everything i want to do, while maintaining everything i’ve already accomplished. there’s too much to do, but it doesn’t really go anywhere because i’m not trying to really better myself, just keep things where they are now, and it takes so much work. i don’t even know if i enjoy these things anymore, i just do them, like eating or something. i feel better after i do these things, but there’s no so much enjoyment, as there is relief that it’s out of the way.

this needs to change. how can i look at everything all the time as something great, amazing, and a privilage? somedays i do, but i haven’t for awhile. i take it all for granted. but it feels like you have to take so much for granted, eventually. if you want to expand, or grow perhaps, there has to be a foundation of things that you know will be there so that you can safely crawl out more toward the edge of the branch, without worrying that it will snap off.

i suppose it doesn’t have to be done at all times though, there just need to be reminders of what we have sometimes, but also what it allows us to achieve. if you start delving depply enough, you can madden yourself with everything you have to be thankful for.

look at the sine (or cosine, depending on how you look at it) wave. if you want to proceed forward, you have to go up and down. there’s nothing wrong with that. go high, go low, it’s all a part of the ride.

at least i’m tall enough to get on.