this is kinda wierd. not having posted for awhile, and finally a little time to do so. work can become all encompassing at times (like, say, when it gets busy) and the brain gets turned off for a bit as coming home becomes a time to shut down, with little room for much else. it just happens, and then it’s march.

and so it goes. there’s not even much to write about which may have been another reason i was avoiding this. i mostly think it was the busy though. i guess one thing i have been turning around up in the ol’ noggin. i re-read the catcher in the rye a couple of weeks ago. i think the first time i read that book was like 8 years ago, so i got a different look at the implications of this very short, but profound book. it made me think about the life i live, coming back to the environment again. and there was one paricular line toward the end that really struck me.

holden had ended up getting ahold of a professor from one of his college stints and after talking for a bit holden was about to take off when the professor told him that alot of people feel lost because they are looking for things that their environment can’t provide, mostly in terms of social interaction. in context of the book, it made alot of sense. there’s a certain phoniness to alot of human interaction, and yet there are just as many other redeeming qualities.

i mean, haven’t you ever felt like you were just caught up in a dance? react this way if this happens. only use body language in these situations. smile. all of the unconscious things we can do, identified, and categorized through language and communication. it cheapens it, yet allows us to better understand.

and then the line between understanding and not comes into view. so much not understood, so much that is, and a million discrepancies in between. doing things you understand may help you get what you want, or keep the undesirables away. manipulation of events that can help or hinder depending on your point of view.

but really, what else is there to keep you distracted? i think elitism fits into the environment that can’t provide what i need, but it must still be useful somehow. i’ll touch on that at a later point though.

dance the dance, and see where it takes you.