i feel like there’s a collective unconscious that tries to contact me from time to time, and now is one of those times.

i see my choices for the larger whole they are a part of, and even though i can’t comprehend any of it really, my thought patterns follow along these lines of my choices and how really infinitesimally small the impact i have, and yet larger than i give it credit for.

i can see both, and wonder why they can’t exist in the same place at the same time. if i don’t see it in just the right light i suppose, i don’t have the perspective necessary. but they do exist, at the same time, with a million shades in between. and that’s pretty cool.

i see everyone around me, striving as i strive, and see how intertwined we all are, and most people have no idea. or they do, they just have to see it in that right light. everyone sitting around, competing for things they hold in value, searching for a better way to do things, where the paradigm for better is shifting so rapidly as to not have a reference point in the first place.

it can seem futile at times, but there is power in that futility. something ungraspable, unnameable, and beautiful. i posess it, but can only see it occasionally. if it were visible all the time, things would be different.

not necessarily better, but different.