there was this radio show i was listening to that featured all these economists. they were talking about cause and effect over years of market fluctuations, where we’re heading where we’ve been. and it struck me that these people view this as a way of life (whether they know it or not), that their training into the field of economics gives them insight into their lives and how it works. it struck me because i mostly think about things chemically or biologically, it’s the system i took time to study, and thus provides my framework.

it doesn’t change who i am, it just gives me a basis to judge things. most people choose to study something pertinent to being a productive member of society, but this estranges you from the whole because you now command a very specific lexicon of something not everyone knows. since alot of time is spent each day using this lexicon, it seems only natural to extend it to everything around you. it’s what you know, right?

but when i think about any profession, there are different tasks, different things to work with, different jargon, but the themes underneath are the same. everyone’s trying to succeed, or at least avoid failure. people have to work together, and have some specific knowledge and communicate successfully to achieve a goal. it sounds so broad, but it is in the application that patterns start emerging. scientists, artists, laborers, it doesn’t matter. with the way things are set up now, there are hoops to jump through to prove yourself. nothing personal, it’s just the way things have always been done.

but i’m confusing myself on that matter. while there is some underpinnings of how society works through various professions interacting, i meant to spend more time on the reflection of self that is dictated by your choice of profession. it is superficial, to be sure, but you work with what your given, right? i know i made the choice to work in biological sciences because out of everything else, they made sense to me, and brought me some amount of joy. i wonder how many other people decided to do what they did because of the same reasoning? people becoming the profession they choose doesn’t look to be that uncommon. i mean, when you spend a majority of your week at work or in bed, how much information can be gathered outside of that?

i think i simplify too much though, because the more i think, the more complex it gets, because trying to break things down into black and white is tough, especially when it comes to breaking down the world around you. maybe the world inside you. i think i’m trying to mesh the two very unsuccessfully right now. if i could do it right now though, i’d pretty much have it figured out, huh? on the other hand though, would i?

in the meantime, i’ll just keep clip-clopping around.