dance the dance!

dance the dance of language!

if for nothing else than maybe just to get some exercise in. to get a feel for some ideas that can maybe be parlayed in this fashion.

because there’s not really much to write about, things are kinda slow. i’ve mostly been thinking so hard on my routines as a person. i took a step back and looked at it objectively, and patted myself on the back. i and other people would mostly approve. stellar work, good sir. you might want to try reading a little more with a little less of the TV. or volunteer in some community thing. or eat more veggies. maybe then you’d feel better about the things you do. but i know how dubious this is in the first place.

when my hands rest on the keyboard, they feel good, potential energy lying in wait. typing feels good as well. potential energy being turned into kinetic. but directed, in patterns. patterns that feel comfortable, patterns that have built on what has come before. i am here, now, with some purpose i have taken from myself and others, on a madcap ride through life in an attempt to further something that is terribly abstract to me. not so much abstract in the sheer amount of variables (although that is part) but more abstract in that my day to day life experiences can hardly be compared to such ideas as life purpose and life viability.

this leaves me…where? in position. to do something that jibes with me. that’s a pretty nice thing, especially when there is always the potential for worse things to happen.

huh. hey growth, how’s it hanging? i just had this funny thought about you. just like most organisms on this planet, growth starts exponentially. it seems like it will never stop, because resources are fresh and plenty. but then something happens, the environment you exist in isn’t boundless, otherwise growth would continue to be exponential. no, suddenly some resources become harder to obtain, scarcer. so growth slows, but doesn’t stop. suddenly, the exponential curve shifts to conform to it’s boundaries in the environment it exists and becomes a logarithmic curve. so growth slows but never completely stops, although it may appear to do so. so growth comes slower as the asymptote approaches infinity. the environment is the limiting factor here, but there’s not a whole lot to be done about that. leaps and bounds don’t come any more, it comes slower, and i have a lifetime of accumulated feelings that dictate so much to me, unconsciously. there’s always the chance that something catastrophic may happen to the environment, getting back to some form of exponential before swinging back to logarithmic at some point. this is happening with all the facets of my life.

all i can do is approach infinity.