life does seem hazy lately. like i’m supposed to be doing something, but i’m not. it’s like i’ve arrived at a stage in my life where everything is here, everything i could ever want. it just feels like it’s been like this for so long, and that it couldn’t possibly last this long. it also feels like i may have adjusted my standards to fit the way things are right now, but it’s tough to analyze the subconscious like that…it brings my secret desires to fruition in it’s own time.

day to day, living life in acceptable manners, within my and other people’s limitations. it’s strange when the main desire in your life steers from the esoteric towards the mundane. more than anything, i just want things to continue the way they have for the past year or so, and there’s no reason that they can’t, which is a bit of a change for me. i’m still open to suggestion, but i’m just waiting for it, not seeking it.

i like waiting for nothing though, it brings a sense of solace.