i am privy to other people’s perspectives, though they may not know it. they subject me to it just by inviting me to join in their social events. i can’t help but draw conclusions and silently observe. what the hell else am i supposed to do when no one expects you to speak? be silent and fulfill your expectations, bitch. you’re old.

i can see the motivations behind wanting to scream at the youth, but am mystified by those who want to try and do so. i mean, you have to have perspective of how you felt when you were young, but apply that perspective now. you know listening is something that will come later…at this stage, living awesomely comes first. there’s this balance point of narcissism that becomes so much clearer once you get some scope of its depths and heights, and what both mean to you. so when does it lead to a stage where it become your obligation to spread what you think is practical wisdom? what frame of mind? i mean, for as long as i’ve known, it’s tough enough to get people to listen to music recommendations, let alone ideas. we’re all busy….but when you’re young, you have more time to be publicly awesome.

I know it’s nothing against me, it’s just the velocity of life. everyone feels busy these days, me included. what can i do but observe, reflect, and enjoy?