ok, so i only have a few minutes, but maybe it’ll be enough to cover this weekend, though i doubt it. basically it can be summed up in a word: craziness.

friday night, i went and visited my dad for a bit, and when i got home around 6:30 i thought it would be rad to ride into seattle instead of driving. i mean, i knew ben and matt were going to be at their house, and i told them i was coming, so why not? so yeah, to make it a little more interesting i got a bottle of wine out of the fridge, and transfered it to a bottle of talking rain. that ride was nuts, i was pretty damn sloppy by the end of my ride, i think i ended up riding 22 miles around the lake, but man towards the end i was crankin. almost like i was drunk and didn’t feel sore at all….hmmm…. but yeah my stomach was protesting that one pretty good, so everytime i took a couple of slugs, it threatened to come back up. it was rad though, i got to bens, trashed, so i was pretty much out by like 11 or something and i passed out on their floor and used couch cushiopns to sleep. it wasn’t incredibly comfortable, but it was rad.

so i sat around ben’s for about half the day, then rode back which was alot less eventful, but it was nicer, and it was light too. sat around for a bit, ate some dinner and went and visited my dad again, then took off for jakub’s place in seattle where we sat around and drank beer for a bit, then when john and joshi showed up, we decdided to go to the last supper club, but we were gonna try and get in for free because if you got there before 9:30 it was free. so john, joshi, me, and jeff hustled over there and made it in by mentioning kiss 106, i thoughgt that was funny, then we retired to john’s car and proceeded to drink more cheap beer, before we headed back in. god i was already pretty trashed when people started showing up at the club. thgen i got ruined. really after the 151’s the night was pretty much confusion. i remember what i was doing, so its not like i blacked out, but damn i was stupid. like really really stupid, i had no idea what was going on. i remember sitting around outside with mike, i don’t even remember if i attempted dancing, i somehow ended up at this club that i thought was the last supper club, but was this place filled completley with black people. i have no idea how i thought that place was teh last supper club, but i ended up paying 5 dollars to get in. and then walked around inside for a bit and wondered why the place had suddenly changed so much. and where all the black people came from. i was confused as shit. so i wandered back outside, ended up talking to some girl for probably 15 minutes or something, and then found it imperative that i find my friends, cause i had no idea where they were, and they had no idea where i was, so i ended up wandering again. i found the last supper club, and i still was thinking that i had found it at the other place, so i wondered why the hell there was two of them. so i wandered around a bit more and went to find john’s car, which when i got there was gone. i don’t know what time that was at, but it must have been hella late, cause those guys told me that they waited for a long time waiting for me to show up, and were asking the police if i had gotten arrested. which might have been a valid claim, i mean i was pretty raging drunk. so i tried calling the only number i knew which was jakub’s cell, but that phone didn’t work, so basically i was stuck with walking all the way from pioneer square back to denny, which was pretty aggrivating to me at the time, but rad now that i think of it. i totally spaced out and when this homeless guy asked me for money i handed him a 10, thinking it was a one. and then i had hiccoughs for a good 2/3 of the walk. and of course i got lost a bunch too, i tried to follow the signs, but i trusted landmarks over streetsigns which is a bad idea when you’re drunk and i walked up a couple of hills and in circles that were completley unneccesary. and got back to jakub’s place completley trashed. i passed out at some point, and wheni woke up the next morning, i knew i had to just go home, cause i hadn’t slept in a bed all weekend.

so yeah i woke up the next day and just dicked around the house, my dad’s at home now, so i spent most of the day watching him, and cleaning the house and mowing the lawn and shit. i was completley wrecked anyways.bah, RAD!

allright, so tonight was kinda odd, well actually the past few nights have been.

so yeah, my dad goes in for this routine thing with his heart where they just stick a balloon in the artery in his heart that has blockage, and then put radioactive pellets in to get rid of the scar tissue that has developed since his minor surgury back in february. so they go to do this, and they take the chest xrays and everything, and it turns out that three of the arteries that supply oxygen to his heart is 99% blocked. this is up from 60% back in february. this of course, is very bad. i suppose that’s its lucky that this was discovered before he actually had a serious heart attack though.

but yeah, so basically they told him last night that he was going to be going in for open heart surgury today, so needless to say he was a bit distressed. but he went in early this morning, and it ended up getting cancelled, but then rescheduled for today again. he ended up going in around 3 and came out around 8. everything went fine though, he didn’t even need to be on a resperator when he came out of surgury, which i was told is very impressive, and he’s expected to be back at home by sunday, which is impressive, considering he just had a quadruple bypass…

so yeah, i’ve been pretty worried for the past couple of days…all good now though, he pulled through, and the next few months are probably going to be fairly rough for him, but the worst is over now….god, what would have happened if the surgury failed? i don’t even want to think of it…

ok ok, so the tables have finally turned. after years of having my mom tellme she’s terrified to come downstairs when i have friends around i find myself in the very same situation. my mom is downstairs now with collin’s mom, and some other woman, it sounds like, and they’re all chattering and bursting into laughing occasionally.

needless to say, i’m terrified to go downstairs.

a group of chattering moms? i might as well start planning everythign i’m going to do in the future right now so i can explain and provide detailed accounts as to how i can provide for everythign in my future. because otherwise, it’ll just be 20 questions from them….20 questions i’ve heard before….20 questions i’ve answered numerous times. and i hate answering them cause i sound like i have nothing figured out, and that is precisley it. but they expect me to have something figured out cause they do, or something like that. i don’t know, most adults seem to think that kids should have thier shit together by the time they’re 21. and really, i do think i have my shit together, just nothing figured out. i’m heading in a direction, but i’ll get more specific as i learn more myself, i can’t just go around speculating right now. well i guess i could, it wouldn’t be too hard to pass stuff off on my mom, but it gets tiresome.

oh well, its funny to me anyways, since all i want to do is go downstairs and get my computer so i can hook it up and play vids. but i just don’t want to brave the resistance. so i figured i might as well blog.

well finally all the moving and cleaning is done, and i just gotta work and chill around the house for a couple of weeks before my knee surgury. i’m glad all that shit is finally taken care of. thursday was spent moving. friday was spent moving and cleaning. saturday was spent cleaning, and moving some more. and this was spread out over seattle and bellingham for me. i really hope andy c rocked, caus ei would have much rather been seeing that than steam cleaning our filthy house. i’m just glad that place is finally behind us (well, unless we don’t get the deposit back, then i’m guessing heads are gonna roll) and we can just focus on getting our new place set up which is coming along very nicley, although i wish i could help more setting up and whatnot, ah well…

i kinda feel like the summer is alrewady over though, i mean i moved out of seattle, i’m living at home again, and most everyone is gone.i’ve still got a month to go, granted, and yet i can’t help but feel like its already done.i mean, i have very few people to hang around with around here in redmond, b’ham is too far away to warrent going, besides i’ll be there the rest of the year after this month, and seattle is do-able, but i can’t see myself wanting to drive back that often. so now all i’ve got is vids, movies, and books, which isn’t that bad, and i’m guessing i’m gonna be cutting back on smoking too….august was a nice month of splurging, but yes, its time to get back to reality.

and right now that reality is that my legs are so freakin’ weak. i can’t believe that i actually went through with yesterday, which was pretty much the highlight of my weekend, caus ei actually did it, which was running a half marathon. i mean, my legs don’t hurt anymore, but it feels like they can barley hold up my weight, i mean i did run 3 times farther than i normally do, but i would have expected more cramping as opposed to fatigue…but yeah, i finished in 2 hours and 10 minutes, which i was damn proud of considering i haven’t done any distance training at all. i saw karl there too, and that was rad, but he seemed a bit distracted…something about some girl he was supposed to meet. haha, probably thought he had a chance or something….ya ya ya. oh yeah, riding my bike back formthe red hook brewery was rad too, i had to stop every mile or so and try and stretch out some random cramp that i would get in my legs, back, abs, shoulders, it was great. every mile was a frantic stop on the trail or roda, hopping off my bike, and contorting myself desperatly trying to get into a position that would lessen the pain, and try and stretch it out. i was ruined though, and still am, it was awesome.

9 days of work left, surgery in 14, and alot of buffonery to fit in before i have to start studying and taking things seriously again….i can’t wait….

ok so this weekend was rad, with us buying a bunch of cheap stuff at that strange garage sale in the abandoned albertsons, and then wearing it out that night. that was a night of some rad drunkin’ beligerence. but yeah, there was a whole lot of moving this weekend too. and then we screwed around on dan’s boat on sunday afternoon, and cruised around at top speeds. i swear we looked like we were drunk as we were pulling out of there, we had no control of that boat as we all tried desperatly to get it out of the launching area. that was rad too.

so the whole weekend was rad, but it made me kinda look at the way i’ve been living this summer, and its a bit surreal. i look at the way i live up in bellingham, and the way that i’m living in seattle. which one is the vacation? whih one is reality? i mean, i could chalk them both up as vacations i suppose because anything that isn’t school is a vacation for me. but socially its strange. i jump into drama here in seattle, while drama continues in bellingham. and then there’s redmond people i hang out with too. so i’m just this gomer on the sidelines who pops in occasionally, makes alot of noise and then dissappears again for a bit. i’m guessing i’ll get a feeling of home once i move up to bellingham, but i’ve just felt out of place this summer. it seems like i have dozens of people that i need to see all the time, and each person is like a different section of my life, like i have a segmented life now due to the different groups i hang around with. so socially, this has been a strange summer. but a good one. i don’t know i need to think through this more, but i guess i’ll do it later, cause its time to go home. i guess your life is kinda funny when the only real goal you have is to earn enough money to make sure you see the next. but it’s been fun.

ok, so i forgot to mention the most hilarious thing that happened on saturday night when i got together with everyone to go to bars in pioneer square. while we were walking up to the J&M, we saw this white mercedes stretch limo, and we were like, “damn that thing’s big pimpin'” so as the light changed and it turned left, we were shouting things like “big pimpin’!” and “bling bling” at it. and while it was turning we see this guy with a black suit on, lean out the window with bills in both hands saying “hell yeah!” at which point there was an explosion of laughter from all of us. that guy was awesome

this whole work thing ain’t a bad racket, ithink this is the first summer where i haven’t at least been slighty anxious to get back to school. this year i’m pretty much dreading it. i think our house will be fine, living in fairhaven will be fun, but damn, i probably won’t get to enjoy those too much cause i’ll be studying. whatever, i don’t want ot worry about it yet, cause i still have a month before i have to start dealing with it. that bridge will be crossed when i get to it.

well the past few nights have been interesting, hanging around with high school people that i don’t really see that often (besides ben, of course) so on wednesday we went to the workshop tavern which is this great white trash bar in redmond, one of the few drinking establishments there anyways, and we hung around and drank, it was interesting. a strange group it were, and uncomfortable silences seemed to happen every 10 minutes or so. i didn’t give a damn at all, it was just funny to me i thought. uncomfrtable silences are funny to me. i stopped thinking of them as uncomfortable awhile ago. i noticed that i really don’t have alot to say most of the time, because i hate just saying inanae things just to keep things “comfortable”. a whole lot of time is wasted saying things that don’t mean anything, and i think i just got tired of it.i’d rather have what i say have more meaning than most of it just be prattle. so when a silence like that comes around, i just sit around and look at everyone else involved. i’m sure as hell not going to come up with something inane to break it, i can entertain myself.

haha, oh yeah, i got myself a flat tire while we were driving around before hand, it was fairly entertaining, i managed to change that tire pretty quick though, like 10 minutes, but damn, driving back to seattle witht hat little donut thing on was a bit nerve wracking…made it allright though, gotta go get some new tires today….

but yeah, it was interesting, what with alyson there and all. tim showed up though, and no one’s really seen that guy in awhile so it was cool to see him. he’s a rad guy, but i don’t know him very well, but it was still entertaining. it was great when my brother came up though, we were all chilling. and he was motioning for me to come outside, it was funny cause he was in the family van with 4 of his friends and he was asking me if i had any greens, so i complied and gave him some, it was just hilarious to me. my brother rocks. but then scott, eric and i took a little drive and ended up outside of his house and we shibbied for a bit, that was good fun. its too bad scott leaves on next monday, cause i’m gonna be around for the next two weeks in redmond with not a whole lot to do. anyways, i went home after that, that was a pretty tiring night, i remember yesterday at work being pretty damn long, i was so tired.

but we took off from the office a little bit early and ben and i went home to redmond where we filmed some hilarious stuff, that i hope my brother will find on his camera, and then we chilled with my dad for a bit while we waited for mike and eric to show up, so we could go play some golf. we headed out to good ol’ tall chief, buying a half rack of key ice on the way. so playing golf was hilarious. i had the most horrible slice yesterday, so that i was almost facing 45 degrees away from the way i was trying to hit it to compensate. this only got worse as the beer kept being drank. we got to play the back nine this time though, cause there was some tournament or some jazz, so we couldn’t play the familiar holes. ah well, we got some good golfin in. but then we came back form that and got pretty shibbied and watched dating shows, that was pretty funny. oh, and we had a trip to wendy’s. i remember everyone being pretty damn confused on the way there, that was pretty hilarious.

sigh…. i don’t really want to be at work here, cause i ould be at home, i mean we’re the only ones in the office. might as well work to pass the time i suppose…

high low high low, have i always lived this way? i swear, the more i struggle for normalcy, the more i push myself away from it.

but today is one of those good days. nothing to worry myself over, nothing to really get done, well except two things today. get a new ATM card, and clean our freakin’ house. oh yeah, gotta give a violin lesson today.seeing as today already started off so easy, i don’t wager that its going to get much more so.

man, i thought today was gonna be ass, cause i would have to be out in the field all day, but i got to arrive at work at 8:15 instead of the usual 7:00, but i got to leave at 11, so it was like i at work at 7. so now, i’m feelin all nice and rested, i got nada ahead of me today, especially sitting here a tthe offic. data entry is better than being at roxhill, i have to admit. sucks for ben, apprently he had to stay out in the field all day. i probably could have just stayed home today, but shit, i can’t get away with that like i used to last summer. not enough people here anymore, and actual jobs to take care of. hahahaha….”actual”

whatever, i’m just rambling

ramble ramble ramble

i like water, i really don’t know what i would do without it. i mean, i crave sweet drinks like lemonade or coke or something like that all the time, but even now that i can afford that junk, i still don’t go out and buy it, cause it does cost money, and water is already in the house and doesn’t require me to go out and buy things, hence avoiding the store. i just feel so out of place in public places these days. not that i haven’t always felt that way i guess, but more so latley. its more funny to me, really. all those people doing stuff, and me joining them to do more stuff, stuff makes the world go round, at least it makes our society go round. i guess it makes the world go round too, cause stuff is a pretty all encompassing term.

its all about stuff, people who think things are in so have it all wrong. things just isn’t broad enough to cover everything that’s ludicrous in our universe. stuff is so much more fitting. i feel much richer with stuff as opposed to things.

huh, looks like the sun’s starting to come out, maybe it’ll be like yesterday and the sun will come out around 3 or soemthing, right as i get off work. that would be nice, i plan on going on a bike ride today. twould be nice if it twere sunny though.

WuDaR!

man, i just leaned up against the wall, and took a half hour nap untili was woken up by the phone. i might as well be at home, oh well, i’ll hold out for another hour.

good lord the insanity of yesterday, i hadn’t done that much driving in awhile…

but yeah, the drive was long, but luckily the police decided to spice things up and pull me over, for jay not havign his seat belt all the way on, and because i was riding the yellow line cause my steering wheel has a whole lot of play. guess he thought we were drunk or stoned or something cause he had me get out of the car and grilled me about how i knew these people, and what we were goign to see, and if we had any dope. i thought he was gonna make me do sobriety tests, that would have been funny. but yeah he checked my license and shit and just let us go, he was actually allright for a state trooper.

but yeah we got there, and we sat around the parking lot and drank rum and cokes for an hour or so, i had three half and half cans so i was pretty damn good by the time we got to the will call window. ben also randomly ran into friends from puyallp, that was pretty humorous. these other people started asking us for some random ass ride too, like this candy girl didn’t wnat to pay for camping, so she wanted us to help her mover her car somewhere legal, because they didn’t allow overnight parking in the lot. imagine that. but yeah we told her that we would help her if she was around when it was over, but we weren’t goign to wait around for her. of course she wasn’t there when we came out either.

but yeah, right off the bat, digweed had cancelled, which was a bummer, and ash cancelled too, but i didn’t really give a damn about that. the avalancehes were a dissappointment, cause there was only one of them there (out of the five of them) and he was just spinning some low key house, none of their stuff got played, but oh well. diselboy ripped it up though, per usual, and its always great to dance to d&b drunk off your ass (which i was at the beginning of the concert). and then tiesto played and dan plyed. tiesto was rad, i hadn’t heard some good trance in awhile, and it was refreshing since most people just play dark house or dark tech these days. that shit ain’t for dancing as far as i’m concerned. and dan was funky as hell, out of the couple times i’ve seen him, he totally ripped it up this time, it was funky, and it was dirty, and i was dancing really hard for his whoel 3 hour set. it was really rad. i also saw lily there which was cool, we danced for a bit, and talked and whatnot.

i did go out occasionally to see teh other acts though, busta was pretty funny, when i went out there to see him he was immediatlyyelling about weed and telling everyone if they had it to smoke it. you could see a lot of puffs of smoke coming out from the main floor of the gorge, it was hilarious. i also heard form lily that he brought out a this swaddled thign that looked like a baby and pulled out a bottle of cervasze and proceeded to pass it around to the crowd, busta was pretty damn belligerent from what i could tell. saw bowie for a little bit too, i mean the guy is a legend, and its for good reason. he covered some elvis songs (along with everyone else yesterday, since it was the 25th anniversary of his death). and i listened to a few more of his songs before goign bak to see dan. moby is well…..moby, if you’ve seen him once, that’s about enough. he still put on a good show, for first timers, but it was almost exactly the same as last year….and the year before…except he didn’t play the fastest song in the world which kinda dissappointed me, cause that was a great part of his show. guess he had to make more room for smash adult contemporary hits like “we are all made of stars” riiiiiiight. walking out was pretty funny too, apparently the trojan people didn’t hand out all their condoms, so they were swarming people at the door, after i got handed like my 7th condom of the night, i was just like “not gonna use it…” at which the girl who handed it to me, and ben promptly exploded in laughter.

driving back was uneventful, but i was so sore already, and i had to drive all the way to redmond, then to wallingford, and back here, so it was 3:30 by the time we got back and i just went and passed the fuck out. it was a rad day thoguh, but now my entire backside is so sore, i mean, i’ve never come back from dancing all ngith at a rave with my neck this sore, what the hell did i do to it?

fuck, i think its time to read a bit more, my friend mike is flying in around 11:30 so we’re goign to pioneer square.

my kingdom for some greens……

friday friday friday

this week as been odd, if not short i suppose, and this weekend only shows a trend of more craziness. so today, i’m going to area 2, with ben, alyson, and jay. this is kinda an interesting combination to me, but i’m sure it’ll end up being fun. i really am stoked to see the avalanches, and am gonna do everything possible to make sure we get there by 4:15. then it’ll just be wandering around from the main stage to the tent, as my mood for dancing dictates. i haven’t danced to some nice progressive trance, and i’m sure tiesto and digweed won’t dissappoint.

and tomrrow, my friend from hgih school, mike, is flying in from boston, so this just dictates that we all have to get together again. only difference is that we’re all 21 this year, so we’re gonna be going to pioneer square and going to some trendy bars where i am overcharged to get moderatly drunk. ah well, its mostly just chilling with friends anyways, which is the point of going out in the first place.

hmmm, what else…

oh yeah, yesterday i finally got up enough initiaive and enough nothing to do to go out and see the seattle asian art museum. i’d been meaning to go most of the summer, after i learned about it back at the beginning of the summer. i was pretty surprised a the collection that this place had, although there wasn’t as much painting as i had hoped for. they had lots of porcellain artifacts from china and japan, and some of those were pretty striking, and then they had alot of 1st century sculptures from india. i swear the intracacy of everything there wouldn’t seem humanly possible to just be constructed with primitive tools. all those craftsmen of the days of yore own me. they also had this crazy korean modern artist who recreated his new york apartment using translucent silk. the attention to detail was just amazing, i mean he actually had the light switches in on, or off position. it basically could have been a glove for the entire apartment, it was pretty impressive.

i’m stoked cause i get to use this ticket stub to get intot he seattle art museum sometime next week, which is where i relaly want to go, cause they have this collection from england or something that has alot of romantic artists like gaugin, monet, and some picasso as well, among alot of others. i’ve never been their either, so i bet it’ll be pretty cool.

bloop, i think its about 11 meaning its time to bust this popsicle stand and head out to the gorge.

woo hoo! i got a pet rat yesterday, and it is very very rad. got a nice huge cage with it too, and all for free!

sweeeet