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since, i’m doing computer stuff for a professor of mine everyday, i find myself spending more time in front of the computer lately, which has increased blogging, but it won’t let me post them. eh, whatevs, there will be a flood rush of blogs someday soon.

i read on ben’s blog the fact that things are only rediculously stupid if you take them seriously. i know it’s over a month old, but, i guess i never really read it the first time around.

as a brother in the fellowship of stupid, i can say that taking things any more or less seriously will not decrease it’s aptitude for stupidity. for example, walking into a post that you see coming is stupid. running at it full bore is even stupider. but after running into it full bore and punching yourself in the head afterwards until you black out borders on rediculous.

but people will cram mcdonalds into their mouth day after day, not walk more steps than it takes to get to the car/refrigerator, or eat a diet that completley lacks carbohydrates.

but also people go to school, educate themselves, and spend countless hours at school to get a piece of paper that will get them a job that could have been much easier to get had they just known someone who liked them, and end up working in job that pays more money with which to live more rediculously.

people will dedicate their lives to the service of others, for little money, and lead rich and fulfilling lives, if it suits them.

people will believe in a religon only because it was handed down through family, and never question it because of the same reason. people who discover religion because everything else has abandonded them. some will even try and convince others, though they may not be convinced themselves.

people will lose themselves to drugs, sex, money, anything that gives them that sense of satisfaction, where anxiety and pain are not present. people can fool themselves so well that truth is a non-issue. people will give up on themselves, people will hate, people will love, and people will strive.

i tend to think of myself living through that guy who runs into a post full bore then proceeds to knock himself unconcious. my definition of stupid and rediculous gives me a sense of humor, along with whatever is done, someone is going to think it is rediculously stupid, giving it merit as something rediculous and stupid. and yet, the real underlying theme is “why?”

why would something like this exsist? why would someone do it like this? why would anyone think this is a good idea?

the underlying theme of our existance…why? it makes sense that so many things are rediculous and stupid because we can’t possibly fathom everything that happens in this world for what reason, especially with a set of beliefs that are molded through you for most of your life. plus, it’s easier to think in patterns and keep things the same, then to think outside of that pattern. sometimes impossible.

when i look at myself, i see the epitome of rediculous stupity. i am the biggest hypocrite that can write something but never act on it. i can question and never come to conclusions. i can observe what happens to others and not learn a damn thing from it. i can be free to live in the confines of this exsistance, and be grateful that i have something. this makes my life a comedy, and it varies from day to day.

because if nothing could be taken seriously, there wouldn’t be much dichotomy for stupidity.

went hiking on sunday, and i kinda wish i had internet on my computer, cause then i would post a picture. It was picturesque to say the least. getting outside was nice though, even if it didn’t rain much at all during the hike.

i’m glad that its raining, it makes for a pleasant ambiance, coolant when doing something active, and is giving the plants around here much needed sustinance, and cleaning up 3 weeks worth of accumulated grime out of this city and back into the bay, where it belongs. the bay is dead already anyways, might as well load it up to the saturation point.

blame it on the rain……blame it on the stars…..

this is kinda funny at least to me. by just listening to this conversation at this computer station, i can already tell what professor they are taking their class from. its a intro biology class, but the stuff they get drilled about isn’t stuff i got to till i got into 300 level classes. i guess they’re traiining them better at high school these days, or their trying damn hard to weed people out. all ths talking their doing, and its all ideas that i know forward and backwards, like them asking “what actually happens in gene therapy”, and i just want to rattle off three sentances, thus proving my senority, and superiority (uh huh).

man, i’ve come a long way in my education, kinda weird that it’ll be over in a couple of months.

days fly by, and when you don’t have a computer at home anymore and have to walk 2 whole blocks to school (uphill, mind you) and blogging gets shoved way under the rug.

i swear this summer has just been a black hole for money, with disorderly conducts, moving in and moving out, i’m barley going to have enough for my last quarters’ tuition, which is really still a loan. no worries though.

i’m staring at this conserved domain that comes from cDNAs that are found in nasonia (wasps), but is homologous to other domains in closely related organisims drosophila and anopheles (fruit flies and mosquitos). comparing them together will let me know if these domains are conserved throughout species, or are just products of random chance. i can’t believe this stuff is actually interesting to me, and if i was getting paid thousands of dollars a month, i would probably find plenty of time to do this kind of thing. gotta put in the school time though….

the computer lab is nice and empty up at western, kind of nice, i’m sure i’ll be spending lots of time here doing things similar to what i’m doing now, since i won’t have a computer at home, and the computers in the biology department are still low end pentium ones.

i gotta say that there’s nothing to complain about though, i’d say life is about at it’s most routine right now, which isn’t that bad at all. i can do this whole takin it easy for a bit longer.

man, so i got moved into my new place, spent about 3 days straight cleaning my old place, and am now pretty well established in the new one. moving out is for the birds, but i did cut my crapload of stuff about in half. i like my new place though, its close to campus, close to town, and just large enough for me and heather. besides having no outlets int he kitchen or bathroom, and the pod like feeling of everything, i’d say that it’s going to work out just fine.

starting next week, i’ll be working in a lab finally, sequencing cDNAs and cataloging them, i read up about them, so i’m pretty excitetd to start doing that. i figure i’m going to be having some long days though, cause i still gotta work to pay for things, and i’m hurtin after that 2 week hiatus.

but you know what? it’s all good. the sun is shining, i got some time off work, and all my affairs are in order for a bit, so in that case, it’s time to start riding.

so i figure this day is relativly historic, due to the fact that i have invested in a cell phone. i am entering the digital age, because it has become more pratical to have a cell phone line over a landline, because the cell is so much cheaper. cellular is so dominant these days, that it has become cheap. bravo for the cell providers, they are really gettin’ their job done, and i am now included among the consumers,and i really think that it’s rad. i played with my phone for a majority of tonight, and thought it was great to play games and call people whenever, for whatever reason, it was fun. I kinda like having a cell phone, its a curse with some blessings, i suppose.this should be fun.

already a month has flown by for this summer vacation, and i’ve barley hit my stride. i got back from new jersey on sunday, and have been pretty busy since then. no internet connection at home, unfortuantly, so i come to school to get things like email and blogging done, just like i always do i suppose.

so i got nothing new really, it seems like i’m even more busy in the summer than i am during school. of course it could be that i have to move now (into a place by myself, finally) and clean the old place and do all that changing location jazz. 2 weeks, and then that’s it, no more roomates, no more huge house, time for a cozy studio exsistancee. it’ll definatly be a change of pace, ine i think i’m ready for though.

i do get to dress all snazzy at work today, what with my managerial position now. yee haw, it’ll be another change of pace, but pretty moderate i think. i just can’t imagine how i’m going to get a pack of kids not much younger than me to actually listen. ordering people around is not one of my strong suits, but i’m awesome and people love me anyways.

god, i’m heree and i’m surrounded by people in summer school, fretting about classes because it’s a quarter long class crammed into 6 weeks. i imagine that summer school is more stressful than people let on.

i spent this morning replacing both of my tires, so i’m gonna take advantage of the beautiful weathr outside and get a little ride in before work.