ok, so i get home from drinking at 12:45 and everyone’s asleep, what the hell?

i get home, i crack open a busch ice. yes, i am drinking busch ice voluntarily. mostl;y because i am drunk, but i have a feeling i would be doing so anyways.

so yeah, since this is my first blog since school started i guess i should say something about that. pretty much, this quarter of school is going to ruin me. and not in the usual way. but i think this quarter will be bad, but next quarter will be worse. maybe. i mean, 4 days of school a week, i’m there past 6. and i get there at 9 or 10. but when i think about it, it probably beats a full time job. ben told me that he was at a staff meeting for 9 hours. jeez, what a waste of 9 hours. at least i’m learnign something.

air hockey is pretty much the greatest bar game ever. it’s simple, you can play it drunk, and it’s intense.

the past few days have been great. i don’t know what happened, but i have actually felt like talking to people latley,a nd have been enjoying it. this is pretty contrary to what i’ve been feeling latley. i kinda think i’m socially bi-polar, but i’m probably tryign to just blow things out of proportion. sometimes i fee like going out, and sometimes i don’t. i think alot of people are like this, so i’m probably not bi-polar, even remotley. i’m ryan, a human being who resides on the planet we call earth. i live here because i came to be, in one way or another. i came to be without me choosing to do so though. so since i didn’t choose to be here, i shouldn’t have to choose anything. anyhting i choose should be right, and if i go to far, then i can be punished accordingly. if i don’t, then it’s my business. mah businass, my biznassssssssss, stay the fuck up out of my buisnass mah biznassssssss, cause it’s mine all mine. truer words could not be spoken, evenif it was by ludicris.

in the meantime, it’s time to get my anime on. as soon as i get soem firewalls out of the way, ben and i will be unstoppable in our quest, at least this i can be sure of.

i was thinking about this earlier, but last quarter in bio, we talked about organisims only having so much so much energy per day to complete what it needs to complete. i can’t remember the exact rem, but it madde sense. i mean, you only have so much energy to accomplish what you need to accomplish, and what you want to accomplish. of course this is much simpler for animals, because they just have to subsist. but us humans have other goals that we set for ourselves, since we don’t really have to worry about supporting ourselves (like, we don’;t have to forage for food and such) i think that’s why i’ve been anti-social latley, because being social takes time. MY PRECIOUS TIME. time that cannot be replaced. time i would rather spend doing something i want to do, instead of trying to maintain acquaintences or sometghing else that takes way more time than i wish to spend. becaus3e, i’m realizing my time is very, very valuable, somethign that cannot be replaced.

so i should be able to do anythign i want with it, right?